bladders of saline fluids bloat
flesh taut, translucent, dripping
my emotions squirting humorously
heavy, I contract my muscles to open myself
exposed, filthy, oily
the melancholy pours out
hollow, deflated, still twitching
the phlegmatic ache receding already
chased by that lubricating nostalgia
which dissolves the memory of pain
into an echoing pleasure in absentia
itself an acerbic, bubbling expectancy
I guzzle my poison for the enjoyment
of the expulsion
the pustule pop
a signal of my fecal fecundity
of the glorious dying
the nausea
that horrible twitching of the throat
always out of cosmic key
with myself
too low, yet also too high
that ancient poetry of a voiced velar stop
as I slip on my own tongue
wet from the wanting
so much energy is expended converting shapes into sounds
few acts as terrible as hearing our own
voices, unable to recognize them
we ought to rip out our own throats
in tribute to humble silence
were it not that the pretentious babble
be an undying singing to our great god
of meaning
a logarithmic forgetting
thickets growing in the path
dense leaves of trauma
stacked on shelves
spinal numbers fading
not where it's supposed to be
hidden plainly in a forest
fractured semantic strings
my brain a few syntax errors
maps of maps of maps
torn
a misplaced book
great ideas I will never remember
lost inside my body
an incomplete thought
In cellular biology, cell (cell) suicide (suicide) is an effective means of stemming the spread of a pathogen (evil) throughout an organism (civitas)
As in all forms of necrotic (neurotic) cell (cell (cell)) death, cells (cells (cells (cells))) undergoing necroptosis (cell suicide) rupture and leak their contents into the intercellular space (interstellar space)
Necrotic cells (cells (cells (cells (cells)))) are cleared from the immune system (intelligentsia) by a mechanism called pinocytosis (cellular drinking)
This process is in contrast to removal of apoptotic (natural causes) cells (cells (cells (cells (cells (cells))))) by the immune system in which cells (cells (cells (cells (cells (cells (cells)))))) are removed via phagocytosis (cellular eating)
Necroptosis (cell suicide) is specific to vertebrates (what does it mean to have a soul?) and may have originated as an additional defense to pathogens (that feels good). Necroptosis also acts as an alternative "fail-safe" (failsafe) cell (cell (cell (cell (cell (cell (cell (cell))))))) death pathway (which way?)
(cells that go this way never come back)
can you smell it?
the pile of shit on top of the world
the byproduct of industrial alchemy
too complex to digest again
this summit of waste too profound to understand
the most complex object in the known universe
that remainder betraying system failure
it's stacking up
can you see it?
we can only hope there is some bacteria out there
that can break down what we can't
through thinking of some higher order
or maybe we will just have to keep on building
right on top of shit mountain